Hi, Iβm Sara, and this is Tiny Revolutions, a weekly dispatch of personal writing and links about the art of becoming who you are. Reply anytime, I love to hear from you.

One of my favorite ex-boyfriends is a guy Iβll call Bob. Bob was an eccentric character, at least by California standards. He chain-smoked Marlboro Reds and listened to old school country singers like Waylon Jennings and George Jones and had a giant Chevy SUV that he didnβt drive so much as barreled through the streets. An engineer by trade, his main job was construction, but in his spare time he was building a flamethrower that he had nicknamed βReal Problems.β I think itβs fair to say that Bob was pissed most of the time.Β
When I first met him I thought he was a curiosity in a βthis fucking guy!β kind of way, but once I got past his intimidating exterior, I discovered that Bob was actually a beautiful soul. He read good literature and loved animals and was very principled in his way. He didnβt like phonies or pretension and he didnβt stick around when those types of people were present. Plus he used to make me the best fried egg sandwiches Iβve had to this day.
What I liked about Bob was something that Iβve realized is incredibly rare in this world: his purity. Not on the chemical level -- god knows his blood was approximately 50% Jack Daniels -- but on a level of being.Β
Because the thing about Bob was that he was purely, unapologetically himself 100% of the time. He never did anything he didnβt want to do, and while he had no qualms about telling you something you really didnβt want to hear, he never lied to you either. It made him so much easier to deal with most other guys Iβd dated. You just always knew where he stood, and that meant you were either down or you werenβt. It was so simple! (Eventually I was not down for reasons you can probably guess, but thatβs another story.)
Iβve been thinking about Bob a lot lately because Iβve been thinking about the idea of personal transformation a lot lately. If youβve been reading this newsletter for a while, you know Iβve had a bunch of insights recently that have me making some big changes. I think itβs fair to call what Iβm going through a personal transformation.Β
But what strikes me as interesting is that what Iβm going through is not really a βtransformationβ per se, but more of an uncovering. As in the changes Iβm making are not about me becoming a different person, but becoming a person whose actions are more fully aligned with my nature.Β
Maybe this is completely obvious, but I think itβs worth pointing out because, to me at least, the idea of uncovering oneself seems like a much more appealing endeavor than the idea of transforming oneself. I donβt know about you, but Iβm pretty much over the idea of transformation. It sounds both exhausting and doomed to failure.Β
And yet, when we talk about self-improvement, so often itβs couched in those terms. We want to become fitter, happier, more productive, whatever. Itβs like the subtext of most of what we buy into or engage with is βhey loser, get up off your ass and finally become someone worthy!β
But if we operate from the premise that weβre essentially worthy just by virtue of being who we are, itβs easier to see that we donβt need to become someone different. The more valuable exercise is to strip away the things that donβt serve or feed us in some way to make room for the things that do. And that is truly where things get real, deep, and meaningful. Because isnβt that what weβre after? To lead a life that matters to us?Β
As for Bob, he may have had lots of other issues (spoiler: he did), but one thing he figured out long before I did is that thereβs no point in trying to make yourself into someone else. That the real work is to just be yourself and let the world engage accordingly. And for that Iβll always be grateful.
On to a few things I found worth sharing this week.
Speaking of being yourselfβ¦
Edith Zimmerman writes a great newsletter with comics that are both entertaining and thought provoking, and I highly recommend it. I especially loved this edition about how taking up running has taught her about letting go of expectations.

Cool post from the βmildly interestingβ subreddit, which is exactly what it sounds like (and also pretty fun to scroll through when youβre mildly bored). Some librarians put together a list of sensitive subjects so people donβt have to ask them β just more evidence that whatever youβre going through, youβre never really alone.

A Tiny Assignment
Is there a part of yourself that you tend to hide because you worry it makes you too weird? Show it to someone. See how it feels.
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Sara
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I love this! My wife is much like Bob, in that sheβs very direct and unapologetically herself, and Iβve learned a lot from her in the years (not even that many) that weβve been together.